In Totality with Megan Ashley

When my son was diagnosed with autism at age twoand later with Fragile X syndromeI entered a kind of grief I wasnt prepared for. It wasnt loud or dramatic. It was quiet, slow, and deeply sacred. It was the grief of letting go of the life I imagined and learning to embrace the one God was writing.

In this deeply personal episode, I open up about the pain, surrender, and beauty that come with raising a child with special needs while clinging to faith in Jesus. I talk about the silent ache of broken expectations, the sacredness of honest lament, and the unexpected closeness of God in the middle of it all.

Grief doesnt always come from deathit often comes from the loss of an idea, a dream, or a version of life we thought wed have. But even there, God is present. Even in our most unspoken sorrows, He is faithful. And even when healing doesnt look the way we hoped, He still gets the glory.

If youve ever carried a grief you didnt choose, or wrestled with faith in the face of lifes hardest questions, this episode is for you. May it remind you that youre not aloneand that hope still lives here, too.

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In this episode of In Totality, I’m talking about what it means to truly live as a sacrifice for God.

As Christians, we love the idea of purpose, calling, and blessing, but what about surrender? What about the moments when obedience costs you relationships, opportunities, reputation—or comfort? Scripture tells us to offer our lives as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God… but are we really willing to endure suffering and persecution for His name’s sake?

Whether your walk with Christ means walking away from what’s easy, what’s popular, or what makes sense to the world — it’s worth it! If you’ve ever wrestled with obedience when it’s hard, or felt the weight of standing firm in your faith, this conversation is for you!

Tune in and be reminded: He is worthy of it all!

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In this episode of In Totality, I had the pleasure of speaking with Carl Lentz for a vulnerable, honest, and meaningful conversation about grace, redemption, and what a renewed faith looks like.

This is Carl’s first time on the podcast, and we didn’t hold back. We talked about the power of God’s correction, and the process of rebuilding faith, and what it means to live fully dependent on God — even in the private, hidden places too.

If you’ve ever felt disqualified, distant, or unsure of how to move forward with your faith, I pray this episode reminds you: God still calls, covers, and invites us to walk with Him toward wholeness.

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Have you ever felt on fire in your faith, only to wake up one day and feel like God is distant? I know I have. It can be confusing, discouraging, and even a little scary. But here’s what I’ve learned—these shifts aren’t random. They’re part of the faith journey.

In this episode of In Totality, I’m diving into the spiritual cycles of consolation and desolation—those seasons when God feels incredibly close and those when He seems silent. Why does He allow these shifts? What is He teaching us in them? And how do we keep trusting Him when we don’t feel Him?

I want to remind you: God is just as present in the silence. If you’ve been walking through a dry season, questioning where God is, or just trying to hold onto faith when things feel uncertain, this episode is for you! Tune in now!

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In this week’s episode of In Totality, I’m back with my good friend, Preston Morrison, host of The Leader’s Cut podcast, for Part II of our conversation on walking the narrow path as a follower of Christ. If you thought Part I was powerful, you won’t want to miss this!

We’re diving even deeper into what it means to fully live a life that reflects Christ—no matter the cost. We’ll talk about the challenges that come with obedience, and practical ways to stay committed to God’s Word.

I hope this conversation encourages you to stay faithful, even when the journey feels challenging. Choosing God’s way leads to true purpose, peace, and life in Him.

If you’ve ever wrestled with what it looks like to live set apart, this episode is for you!

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